I’m so jealous for you
I’m so jealous for you
Choosing to love
Is not so easy
It’s a constant dying
A willful surrender
Selfless in nature
But gracious and kind
A pure heart
To put your life on the line
It doesn’t matter
When things are not reciprocated
When your name is slandered
And your motives misjudged
And then waits
And endures all things
I love the way that The Lord loves us
With his kindness he wins the nations over
His sovereignty and might are matchless
But it’s his sweetness and gentleness
His warmth and delight
That draws us near
I love it!
He is good to me!
Vince and I are no longer an item
And I think it’s best to write here on my shelter of a tumblr page
I feel safe here
Able to express myself with no bounds
Thank you to those who read
It means the world to me
I don’t think I’ll tell anybody outside this sphere for a while
Kind of just allowing myself to feel, reflect, and process…
I think it shall be a hard couple of days, weeks? …?
Things I have learned:
1) Honesty is the best policy. This ain’t no game yo! And I ain’t just talking about sincere nagging or complaining. Honesty. Be honest to your partner about your thoughts, emotions, fears, hopes, plans, intentions… And be honest with yourself. It’s okay to be unsure, it’s okay to doubt and question… But what will you do with it? Don’t let things hang on the back burner. Honesty! Accompanied by good intention, consideration, and wisdom of course.
2) Have fun and enjoy. Don’t get caught up in the past or the future. Who is it that is in front of you? Allow yourself to enjoy this person and to let yourself to be the present you too. Enjoy the talks, enjoy the silence, enjoy
3) These things are much harder for me to apply to friends and family :( sorry! Working on it currently!
In other news,
I was appointed the campus pastor of GPS Sunnyvale today
Let’s be real,
Only god knows what this will actually entail
For now it will look like praise leading
And preaching like once a month
I’m not sure where any of this will lead
All I know is that god is sweet
And so misunderstood
And that I have a desire to share his goodness with the world!
I know that my parents are proud
But I’m not doing it for them
Cause he first loved me
It’s why I can go to work every morning
And be so happy
Why I can live at home after graduating
And love my family
Even when it’s hard
Oh the answer to life’s unknown questions
Love love love
I wish you all only the sweetest of dreams
Frida winking, 1933
today was my last day in my creative writing class and my teacher gave everybody a piece of paper to write down a contract and to put it in our wallets. she said she did the same thing when she was younger and every now and then she’d brush by it and remember that she wanted to write. everybody took time to write out what they wanted and I just sat at the back of the class, sitting on the windowsill and I knew there was only one thing to write but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. at the end of the class after everybody left, I went to thank her for the year, and she told me that people should be reading my words for a long time, but they won’t be able to do that if I’m not around to write them. I showed her the blank piece of paper, and she said it was okay not to write anything, and then I wrote this. I learned the power of words in that class, I learned it was okay to vomit up half a dozen notebooks stained with blood and exploded pens because it means you have something to say.
Photo: An Rong Xu for TIME
Photographer Andres Serrano takes to the streets and takes over a New York City subway station with his confrontational portraits of the homeless.
Photo: Joseph Ruzicka—CCNY
The Camera Club of New York signs a deal this week in hopes of revitalizing its programming while remaining true to its analog roots.
This makes me happy
Photo by Wong Maye-E—AP
From an Ebola outbreak in Africa and Eid al-Fitr celebrations around the world, to the destruction of underground tunnels in Gaza and people dancing in the streets of North Korea, TIME presents the best pictures of the week.
See the full gallery on TIME.com
Nude Portraits series by photographer Trevor Christensen
This is my new favorite thing
Before theaters were nationwide chains, every small town and bustling city had its own unique cinemas and theaters.
In an effort to chronicle these iconic American buildings, photographer Stefanie Klavens has been roaming the country documenting the ones that still remain.
Ugh so sexy
Visitors play shuffleboard at a recreation center near Mirror Lake in St. Petersburg, Florida, 1929.Photograph by Clifton R. Adams, National Geographic Creative
Selfie Study #lookbutnotcompletely
Selfie Study #lookaway
Everyday I’m learning