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Justine Blau is a visual artist, creating works that explore the various languages and usages of photography, particularly in a vernacular context. She is interested in the role culture plays in shaping an environment or people’s interactions. Many of her works treat with the complex and peculiar relationship humankind maintains with what we qualify as ‘nature’.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
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FAT SMILE
to be alone with you
(by Yimmy Yayo)
Today i went to the anthem
and i was really annoyed
hype needs to die
so that things can just… be
no i don’t want a freaking free t shirt
not if i have to yell for it anyways
i don’t know why
but this has always bothered me
like gtfo
I think i know who he is
but the notion scares me
and excites me at the same time
it makes complete sense why it would be him
but then i second guess myself
and my ability to discern things like this
plus i’m a mess
I’m getting scared again
i hate it i hate it i hate it
i want to just do projects
but then i get scared
I’ve been crying myself to sleep every night
not in a hopeless depressed kind of way
but i don’t know really…
my heart has been so sensitive to everything lately
Where in the world did this huge need for approval come the frick from?!!
I feel distant from a lot of my friends
and i can’t tell if it’s like my twisted perception of things
or if it’s actually happening
or if they feel like they can’t confide in me…
i hate it
tender heart
i showed missy a video of me dancing
and it made me cry
because i havent really shown anyone that
except sam once
because i knew she wouldnt judge me for it
i’m not really sure why i cried though
i think part of me is like relieved to share this part of me with someone
especially her
and this other part is so incredibly vulnerable and afraid
waiting for approval
or something
just anything but nothing
i don’t like that part
i can’t really explain it any other way…
last year, god told me to dance
he told me through random strangers
told me through friends
and movies
and i ignored him
because that just sounded silly
and too out there
too out of my comfort zone
but then i started remembering
how scarred i had been
that even in kindergarten i was afraid to dance
but that the desire was always there
and the desire was pushed aside and hidden
until now…
how do i pursue something that i’m no good at?
it reminds me of fifth grade
i loved singing so much
but was so insanely afraid of it
because it was just me who knew that i liked it
my friends didn’t know
and my parents didn’t know
god knew though
and somehow through all the moving
i ended up in a whole bunch of school choirs that were quality
and i grew a lot as a singer
in confidence and in skill
but it’s so much easier to reflect on things like that
because they already happened
i really want to pursue dance
but i have no idea how to
but i hope that one day i can triumphantly reflect on these days
days when i was so scared to just dance
art ive made in the past couple of weeks…
it was a crazy rush of work
but i learned a lot
and am excited for more!
my second day of work at asi is tomorrow!
im super excited to pump out some sweet designs for them
pulled a gnarly all nighter yesterday
it was cray
i wasnt sure finishing my beverage redesign would even be possible
but wowww yeahh thank god for encouraging friends!
and creativty woot
after working on the book nonstop this past week
i finally sent it to print today!
i feel light
pasjdaposjdaposdjsdifosdf hehe
just woke up from catching up on mah Zs
and all i want to do is paintoiashdoaihsdoaishdoasd
during this crazy week
all ive wanted to do is play with my COMPOSIMOLD
oh my gerd
and paint<3
and now that im freeeeeeeeee
that notion scares me
but i think it means that its gunna be extra great when i do
do those things
being scared….
aint no body got time fo that
ahh finally exporting this babyyyy
my vision is so blurry right now
hopefully there won’t be too many edits…
now to sleep
and prepare for tomorrow…
oh man
is this possible?
yesyeysyeysysyeiashdoaihsdasd
ahh lets do this
“You don’t take a photograph, you make it.”
– Ansel Adams (via hilde-w)
